As you obviously know, I am a working project on learning how to express feelings. I am not a magician with the words, but I do know how to work a keyboard, so hence, I am writing you this online letter!
It gets difficult for sometimes to think of ideas or actions that show you my love for you. Sometimes I hit and miss, other times I cancel the idea before it gets started because I think its not good enough (a.k.a. whack). I have a issue / need in me that feels I can't do any idea twice, and anytime I have an idea, it has to be better and different than any of the of the previous things I've done for you. This results in me overthinking stuff sometimes and / or taking a long time to come up with a creative idea to do for you.
So a month or so ago, I knew I wanted to do something for you that made you feel loved. Better yet, I wanted to do something that made you feel loved, beautiful, powerful, and special in your own way. Because although you know you are great, I understand that me expressing to you how great you are makes your even greater, more powerful, more beautiful, and more glowing. So I came up with the idea to build you what I personally think I build best...a website. Now obviously you now know about this website, because you are reading this. While a lot of the content on the site is showing pictures of us a couple / family, it is YOU that makes this website special.
Beautiful
You are easily the most beautiful woman I have ever met, and that is no exaggeration. From Day 0, all the way to today. I've been looking at you the last few weeks while you sleep, admiring your beauty. As I built this website, and while looking over all our old images and old moments, I had to remind myself how lucky I am to have someone as beautiful and attractive as you. It's hard finding someone with a good personality, down to earth, smart, and as good looking as you. I get the W for life just for being able to marry you and knock you up. Anytime I tell you look good, even with your nappy hair, I am telling the truth. Whenever we watch TV and we be like "dang, she look good", you should know that you are that woman. You beauty is the beauty that people look at and say "man, she looks amazing". I get to enjoy that everyday, and I want you to know I love it. Let this be a reminder to you that you will always be beautiful, sexy, and attractive to me. And if this is not enough, just look through the website and your beauty shines throughout all the stories. You gone be like "dang, I do look good".
Powerful
My attractiveness to you is not just physical, it is also mental. Something else I was reminded of while building the site was of how much of a good team we are, and the roles we play. And you have been there to sharpen me throughout our relationship as much as I have been there for you. Sometimes you worry yourself about being a better at random things, like cooking. And while we both should always strive to be better personally and as one, always know that you are still more than enough. I didn't marry you for your cooking skills, or for what job you have, or for gifts or anything. I married you because you are you. You are down to earth, smart, and still the most caring person I have met. There is power in the way you live and love. The type of power that heals and encourages. You have been complained about Allen 300 times at work, but yet your heart wants what is good for him. You being down to earth helps you relate to anyone, from a Kardashian down to a homeless person. You being smart helps you navigate through good vs bad. And your love helps you heal a situation, no matter if it heals today or 2 years later. The power you possess in your love is one that is needed for our family, and for our marriage. I never doubt that you love me, and I hope you never doubt my love for you. Not even a fool could resist loving someone as beautiful and as loving as you are.
Amazing
I don't have much to say here. I mean I can come up with a few things:
Sexy. Beautiful. Motherly. Caring. Semi-Twerker. Aspiring Chef.
Loving. Family-Oriented. Down-2-Earth. Encouraging. Inspiring. Courageous. Fun. Semi-Funny. Friendly. Fierce-Attitude (yes, this comes with the package). Faithful. Trustworthy. Team Player. Dedicated. etc...
These are just a few things that factor into your amazingness. And I love each and every part, those list, and those not listed.
I am running out of words to type here. to sum it up though, I want you to know you are truly loved. Let this website be a representation of not only us and our story together, but also an expression of my love for you. A reminder of how beautiful you are (and will always be), how loving and loved you are, how amazing you are. If you ever wonder if you are on my mind, this should be your proof.
P.S.: Apple hating ass review team was doing some hater shit. I actually built an app for all of this, but the punk ass review team said the app was 'too personal, too niche' for them to accept it in the app store. That's why I was upset a lil bit the other day, cause they some hoes. But anywho, I do have a version on my phone, and I can put one on yours just for keepsake.
